Hola Bonjour, Mrs. Sissy

Hey Sissy (or do you do Christine? or both?), I want to thank you for our friendship. I was told as you get older, it’s harder to find friends and honestly to find people my age that I even like being around, is difficult. So getting to befriend you is a treat!

Below is my finished animated short. It was a thing I wanted to do to explore my brain and see what it reflected, it reflects a mess 😀 (but a beautiful mess!).

You have often said to me you wish you could finish something or stick to it. I thought a lot about what you said while I did this project. I really can only do big huge projects to completion because it’s something I love, not something I have to do. For my brain, it’s a big difference and I found I would stay up 24 hours working on this at times.

However if you asked me to do my taxes, wash dishes or take the garbage out, it feels like Sisyphus pushing a rock up a mountain. I have found out through this project that if I allow myself to just experience what is going on, that my need for dopamine hits are lessened. So during the monotonous boring parts of this project, I just let myself be curious and find delight in the boring times. And that helped me through it.

If any of that helps you? Then great, if not…next time you find yourself ditching a project because of circumstances (having to be super mom, super wife, super human, super friend) try to just asking “why” and experience it for what it is (like “why? because it’s boring, now. ” Or “why? because I’ve changed my mind). I seriously hate getting free advice from people so please know I say this with a lot of humility.

This video is pg13, no boobies but a few f-bombs and boyish humor… ok a lot of boyish humor.

Art Project: “Surfing the Apocalypse”

The Two Rules I had for myself

1. could never lean into seeking external validation, all of it had to be what I found had meaning to me.
2. I picked around twenty people, personally and you are one of them. You never have to watch, share or reply. I love it and watch all my videos over and over…this has been very healing to me.

This is a reflection of my how my brain interprets the world around it and how I see things.

There is a very special thank you personally, for you at the end where the blue bear starts singing.

oh and pay no attention to the likes thing below, it’s some code I put in to be funny and now I don’t know how to get rid of it, nor do I care… lolz.