Thigville

Hi my dear sweet friend “Mrs. Mation ‘The Boy’” (this would a correct title, right???

I wrote this stream of consciousness – and didn’t really spillcheck.

I have finished my animated short and this is your formal invite to watch it. You’ll need 25 minutes to see the entire thing (if you want, you surely don’t have to and it’s a-ok to scrub the vid).

This project was very healing for me and was extremely helpful with some mental clarity. To allow myself to take a look of how my brain interprets thing without assigning emotions to it was almost otherworldly and for once, I felt like a real artist because I did this from the heart, not from a place of wanting affirmation from others.

I thought about you and Mr. The Boy (and baby Thig Jr) all the way through this project. When I initially started, you weren’t even engaged! Now the bun in the over is almost here and what a wild new chapter for you in your life. I want all the million pictures you take of Baby Thig Jr your bandwidth will allow you to send me.

My wish is in 18 years, you send me a picture of your spawn getting ready to sprout their wings and fly into life and I always want to hear how you, Mr The Boy and anytime you do something creative. I hope we never say hello and we never say goodbye.

I love you Annie, thank you for being my friend. I hope we get to meet properly one day.

I want to tell you one thing that means so much to me about you. As we got to be better friends, I would see posts from you about weight, acceptance of your body and loving yourself. I cannot tell you the decades I’ve had of struggling with bulimia, body dysmorphia, embarrassment that I’m not “rail thin and can fit in fancy jeans with a six pack for a tummy.” Each time I meet someone who has walked a similar journey, I feel a lot of kinship with them (even though dudes rarely talk about it but man do dudes struggle with it, a lot…they just don’t talk about it).

Art Project: “Surfing the Apocalypse”

The Two Rules I had for myself

1. could never lean into seeking external validation, all of it had to be what I found had meaning to me.
2. I picked around twenty people to share this with, personally and you are one of them. You never have to watch, share or reply. I love it and watch all my videos over and over…this has been very healing to me.

This is a reflection of my how my brain interprets the world around it and how I see things.

There is a very special thank you personally, for you at the end where the blue bear starts singing.

oh and pay no attention to the likes thing below, it’s some code I put in to be funny and now I don’t know how to get rid of it, nor do I care… lolz.